#college was k1lling

[w-hikarin]

Cliché ahh plot but

Secret police Felix x Serial k1ller Oliver, they are best mate since college yet they don't know each other real identity

Imagine almost being boyfriends husbands and then they found out, in a dark alley on a rainy night. Oliver next to the victim, no actual blood splash on him because his technique of k1lling people is immaculate. Felix pointing the gun at Oliver "This is your final stop, turn around and put your hand where I can see- ...Ollie...ver..?"

Bonus: Felix plans to take Oliver out for dinner on that day and make them official boyfriends/husbands

[planetlgirl]

ok so i don't really know what's happening to me??? i feel like clementine in eternal sunshine of the spotless mind when she says "i'm lost, i'm scared, i feel like i'm disappearing. nothing makes any sense". i can't explain i just feel it, i realized a while ago i was losing my memory, a lot of memories where being erased, i don't know if it's just my brain doing the job of erasing painful memories, maybe it's it and if it is that i'm thankful but at the same time this stupid brain is also erasing important moments to me, sometimes i look at an old pic and i just can't remember what happened that day and when someone talks to me like "hey do you remember that time when we....." and guess what???? i CAN'T remember, wtf is happening to me, this can't be normal, but i actually don't give a fuck about it, if i could, being honest, i would erase 99% of my life, it's all unusable, it only makes me feel stupid, thinking that i had a lot and now i have nothing, i have no friends, that's all on me btw, i did something stupid and now i can't even look at my friends' face, we don't see each other for a while, there are the covid thing and everything else but we're not even texting, well i just feel more lonely than ever and this feeling is crushing my heart and my chest, i just want to end this, i can't take this for much longer, i need a break, i don't know what to do, why everything has to be so complicated, and yes i'm being dramatic, i know that but it's what i feel, what can i do about it??? i've tried to forgot it but then again i can't forgot my own feelings apparently my heart isn't like my brain, both are stupid, i wish i could put all this in a single thing, like a sport or something, sometimes i just thinking about taking a bus and disappear and i look like a 14 years old boy who fight with his parents and is super dramatic, well that's kinda my true self??? because it feels like i haven't grown since my 15s, i still have a mind of a 15 years old girl, that's kinda sad, i have a cousin she's now 15 and i'm sure she have lived way more than me, i'm so responsible and boring and for what anyways we all are gonna die, now in this quarantine and social distancing i realized that i should have done more things, like partying or anything else, see now i barely go to parties i actually don't even like parties that much, but what do i do i home?? exactly, NOTHING, it would be a little bit better if i had stayed at home studying, but no i have finished my high school and since then i just stay at home, in my bad, thinking about k1lling myself, when i should be at a college, like some of my old friends or at least working, well i can't live for the rest of my life with my parents, i actually feel so bad for them, they put high expectations on me during their whole life and i'm an only child so they only have me to feel pride of, but i'm a dumb bitch who pretended to be smart, i used to be smart when i was a kid, but then in high school i got good grades but i barely studied, i didn’t absorb practically any subject, i did the entrance exam at the end of the last year and my grade was depressing, well i should study more, i should try more harder but i'm just DUMB, i have accepted that, and i'm even more dumb because i don't want to get better, i don't want to study, i don't know what i want to be, i don't fit into any profession, i'm bad at everything, sorry mom sorry dad i know you guys thought i was a smart kid and everything else but i'm just a dumb lazy b1tch. summing up i just want to d1e so i won't have to deal with my failure... this text is a way longer than i thought it would be, i was just going to talk about my memory lost but it looks like i ended up talking about all the shits that has been tormenting me, i could even say, my demons, that's all, no, of course that's not all, but since i'm tired of thinking and writing in english that's all for now....